I Forgot to Post These Photos From Tuesday, 7 February, 2023

Ah, I forgot to post these photos from Tuesday, 7 February, 2023. At that time, my mother and I wanted to take my diploma, but because there was a typo in my name on the diploma, we didn't take it (my mother was furious at that time to the school). At least at that time my high school last tuition debt (IDR 500,000) had been paid off. 

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 7 February, 2023 at 13:13 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in SMA Negeri 3 Manado.

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 7 February, 2023 at 13:13 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in SMA Negeri 3 Manado.

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 7 February, 2023 at 12:21 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in North Sulawesi Provincial Education Office.

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 7 February, 2023 at 10:40 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in SMA Negeri 6 Manado.

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 7 February, 2023 at 10:42 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in SMA Negeri 6 Manado.

But now I have got my diploma. My mother and I have taken my diploma on Tuesday, 21 February (I'll post about this later). 

The photos in this article were first published on my Instagram on Wednesday, 15 March, 2023.

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https://www.instagram.com/p/CpzBR5kSfHI/

Some of My High School Textbooks

So, these are some of my high school textbooks. This isn't all, there are actually a lot more of my high school text books that I've ever owned. I have almost no science-themed books because back when I was in high school I majored in social sciences. These books are published in different years from many different publishers and also with different educational curricula.

Books about economics and accounting, the books under the pale yellow book are actually my mother's books, she used to be an economics teacher. These books are placed in my mother's house.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2034 at 02:59 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Books about anthropology, sociology and geography. For these three subjects I really liked it but I'm mastering more on sociology and anthropology.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 03:00 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Books about history. The subject that I mastered the most of all. Actually I can say myself as an amateur historian, hehe. I've been mastering history since junior high school.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 03:02 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Books about citizenship education. 

I like this subject actually. You know, this subject is similar to politics or sociology. In Indonesia this subject called as "Pendidikan Pancasila dan Kewarganegaraan" or in short "PPKn" (literally: "Pancasila and Civic education").

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 03:03 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Books about Indonesian language and sports. You know, I'm a language learner so I must mastering my mother language: Bahasa Indonesia. About sport, I like it but because of my scoliosis I don't really like sport now, I feel inferior because of that. But, I like to watch Olympic especially gymnastics.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 03:04 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Books about English language. Actually there are a lot more but I don't know where the other books are. Among my other friends, I am the most proficient in English.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 03:06 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 03:08 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 03:09 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 03:09 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

These are Islamic encyclopedia, there should have been 6 books but the other 2 books I didn't have time to take from my Islamic high school. I'll make another article about these books.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 04:01 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Books about Islamic things. The long green books below I took from my Islamic high school. Some of the other books are my mother's.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 04:01 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 04:03 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Books about mathematics. I'm not really good at this subject, usually I get bad grades on this subject.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 03:07 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 23 February, 2023 at 04:02 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

The photos in this article were first published in this article.

My Update for February 2023

I've been melancholic for some of these days actually but soon my melancholy will disappear. I sleep more often and hardly open social media. Ah, it's not good for me actually. I even lost interest in doing what used to be fun for me to do.

This photo was taken on Monday, 20 February, 2023 at 22:09 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

You know, I should take my diploma on Tuesday, 7 February, but it didn't happen. There was a typo in my name on my diploma that was made by the high school which made my mother furious with them. My mother has come to them again on Thursday, 9 February, to check if there was a new diploma or not and thankfully my new diploma has no typo in my name like before.

All last week I was supposed to go to my high school to take the diploma but didn't because I was too tired. It was because of my melancholy period, I fell asleep more often and was sad. Maybe tomorrow or two more days I will go to get my high school diploma.

On Saturday, 18 February, I went to the cinema to watch a film, it's Titanic (1997) in 3D version. It's my all time favorite film, even though I have watched it for so many times but I like to watch it again in cinema, it's the 25th anniversary of the film. It was my first time watching a film in cinema, my milestone. I watch it alone, no friends.

I just broke up with my girlfriend, we haven't even been in a month yet (30 January 2023-19 February 2023). It's better for us to break up than for our relationship to become toxic later. She's a transwoman (just transitioned for 3 months). I actually don't know what I have to like from her, we just met and she wants to be my girlfriend (I met her on Instagram on Saturday, 21 January, 2023). But, we're still friends, she's my close friend and vice versa.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (20/02/2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Monday, 20 February, 2023.

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https://www.instagram.com/p/Co47VaJSPHh/

Story of the Day (Sunday, 12 February, 2023)

I wasn't in mood to write for the past two days, hmm, I don't know what to say, haha. Tomorrow I'll go to take my high school diploma with my mother, hopefully going well.

This photo was taken on Sunday, 12 February, 2023 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in a park near my boarding house.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (12/02/2023) 

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Sunday, 12 February, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CokVufKyqr6/

Story of the Day (Thursday, 9 February, 2023)

All day long I slept from 7am to 4pm. Yes, I was quite tired of writing yesterday. I should go out today but I didn't, but tomorrow hopefully I will.

Yesterday I should have gone to the public health center to check my blood type but it didn't work, today I should have gone too but it didn't work, hopefully tomorrow I can go.

My mother today went to my high school to check my diploma and my mother said my diploma was well written. Thankfully, so I only have to stamp 3 fingers on my diploma later, maybe next week I'll take my diploma.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 9 February, 2023 at 23:20 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

You know, I have chosen the university that I will enter later. I've talked about this with a lot of my friends and also my mother. Anyway, this university is very suitable for my current situation in many fields.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (09/02/2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Thursday, 9 February, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CocnQTky5iq/

Story of the Day (Tuesday, 7 February, 2023)

Today was very tiring for me especially mentally. Today my mother and I have gone to my high school to take my diploma and also pay off my high school tuition debt. Finally, my high school tuition debt was paid off. When I was going through the process of getting my diploma, at first everything went well but not later. 

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 7 February, 2023 at 10:38 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my senior high school (SMA Negeri 6 Manado).

I'll get straight to the point (I'll detail the storyline in another article/post), so there was a typo in my name on my diploma to be precise on my surname, my surname should be ALMAKAWI not ALKAMAWI. My mother while reading my diploma found that typo. 

Then my mother was furious and raged to the point of making a scene at my school. Finally the security guard calmed my mother down and then my mother and I went to the North Sulawesi Provincial Education Office to report that maladministration. 

At the provincial education office, my mother was furious and raged in the lobby and asked to be met immediately by the head of the senior high school management section. However, because the head of the section was not there, my mother met with the head of the vocational high school section. 

After talking for a long time, even though sometimes I went berserk, my mother finally calmed down too. From the education office, my mother and I went to my sister's elementary school to pick her up. After elementary school my sister three of us went to my mother's workplace (SMA Negeri 3 Manado). 

Yes that's the outline of what happened today. My mother threw a tantrum at a lot of people today but I can live with that because she cares about my degree. About my mother it's okay but about my diploma it's not okay. 

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (07/02/2023) 

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Tuesday, 7 February, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CoXed9NSaJ4/

Story of the Day (Monday, 6 February, 2023)

Ah, today my mother and I are not going to my high school to pay my high school tuition debt. I also just went to bed at 5am because I was busy tying my tie (I stayed at my mother's house since yesterday 05/02/2023). Hopefully tomorrow (07/02/2023) I and my mother will go to my high school.

This photo was taken on Monday, 6 February, 2023 at 23:44 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

You know, my glasses have been crushed by a car. So, at 8pm when my mother and I were going to buy pliers, my glasses fell out of my sweater pocket onto the street. It's okay, I've been wearing glasses very rarely since last year because the lenses are blurry.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (06/02/2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Monday, 6 February, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CoU5gPUyCrF/

Story of the Day (Sunday, 5 February, 2023)

Aww, this day I was encouraging my own self that I can be better and I can improve a lot of my abilities, especially my language skills. I'm still learning many things, my knowledge and wisdom that will save me coupled with my strong mentality and charming personality.

This photo was taken on Sunday, 5 February, 2023 at 22:53 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Tomorrow (06/02/2023), My mother and I are planning to go to my high school to pay off my high school tuition debt of IDR 500,000. Hopefully after paying the tuition debt I can immediately take my high school diploma.

Tomorrow is the first day of studying at Sam Ratulangi University, my college friends are probably ready for the first day of their second semester. Ah, it's okay I will go to college again at another university that is better than that. I will continue my study, really.

Writing like this is good, when one day someone wants to insult me ​​or put me down based on my past story, I'm ready for that because I've told a lot about me from now until later. I also share stories about me with all of you, maybe we have similar or the same stories.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (05/02/2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Sunday, 5 February, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CoSTC6DylMZ/

My Update for January 2023

Hi, this is me for 2023. I have changed my hairstyle since 30 December, 2022. I'm still thinking what I want to do further. You know, I don't know what to do now since I don't continue my college at Sam Ratulangi University. One of the main reasons is because the lecture process is still online (except for semester 4, 6 and 8) and also because I don't have money to pay my college tuition, it's IDR 3,000,000.

Currently I don't have any job I just staying alive. I haven't made ID card yet (my mother told me that we'll we make my ID card together later and I'm tired of waiting) and my mother hasn't taken my high school diploma (she still has a debt to my high school, my tuition fee, IDR 500,000 which she has not paid yet).

This photo was taken on Friday, 20 January, 2023 at 09:56 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Friday, 20 January, 2023 at 09:57 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Friday, 20 January, 2023 at 09:57 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Friday, 20 January, 2023 at 10:01 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Actually I have no plan for 2023. What's matter for me is that I'm still alive. I'm just still on my old plan from last year: leave this fucking city and the this province too, leave my family and go so far I can, stay survive in a new place and looking for a job out there. 

How is my relationship with my family now? It's pretty unclear actually for me because I want to leave them but because I'm still here so I'm just taking advantage from my mother. I'm still very dependent on her for my life actually, my food, my cleanliness and my internet credit. What am I doing at her house? Just washing dishes and cooking rice. Sometimes I have done it but she still doesn't appreciate it.

My mother's relationship with my grandmother is very not good. Actually this is an old problem in my family, my mother has hated my grandmother since she was little but things have really gotten worse since my grandfather passed away on 25 March, 2022. Sometimes there are incidents that make my mother and grandmother in trouble, I actually don't really care about it, it's not my business.

Now I still live in my boarding house in Ranomuut Sub-district, Paal Dua District. This is  my grandma's business. Actually I'm very grateful to be able to live here for free and far enough but not too far from my mother, I have privacy here and I still commute from here to home every day to get food, still the same since December 2021. I won't live here forever, this is just temporary.

I know that I can be better out there, I hope this is just the matter of time. What I'm doing now is survival, that's what I'm doing now. You know, I haven't received monthly money from my mother, the last time my mother gave it was November 2022. My money now is IDR 105.000 or $6,93 dollars (20/01/2023's rate).

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (20/01/2023)

The photos in this article were first published on my Instagram on Friday, 20 January, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CnnuPbQSofa/