Always Be Nice to Me My Friends

I now always hope that all my new friends will be always nice to me and will never bully me. I'm always nice to all my friends. I'm already stressed enough at home, by my family especially my mother. I don't want to be stressed by my friends.

Taken on Thursday, 29 February, 2024 at 22:24 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

You know that I always try to maintain harmony in my relationship with you, my friends, let no small problem break our relationship. What I don't like most is if our differences in political choices damage our relationship (except for very fundamental things). Don't let it happen.

To avoid conflict as much as possible, I always do that, therefore I am very patient with many people including you my friends, you know what I mean. However, in our interactions or how we treat each other, there must be consent. If you don't like it, say it, don't be silent.

The photo in this article was first published in this article.

Our Friendship is More Important than What Happened in Palestine

If you follow me on many of my social networks such as Facebook, Instagram, Twitter or Tumblr you may have noticed that I rarely post anything related to Israel and Palestine, especially about the conflict that occurred between them. The only reason is because I don't want any conflict to occur in the comments section, especially on Facebook.

 

For all of my friends, there are many of you guys who are pro-Palestinian and pro-Israel, that's your choice. What about me? I'm pro Palestine but not in the way people might think. I try not to really show my views on this, I don't want our friendship to get worse because of this.

 

I support Palestine, I support the Palestinian people in fighting for their independence against the Israeli occupation. I support the two-state solution with pre-1967 borders. Hopefully one day, Palestine will be free, even if it would take a hundred years.

 

I don't want to lose friends just because of differences in opinions about Israel and Palestine. Whether you are pro Israel or pro Palestine, if you are my friend, you are my friend. I always maintain harmony in our relationship. 

 

It's not easy to find friends now, especially friends who can understand me as me. Please always be a good friend, I also always try to be a good friend. I don't really have any friends in real life. I need all of you. 

 

I hope you all understand this. Don't end our friendship just because of this. Our friendship is more important than what happened there, yes I said it so please don't be angry. Please always be nice to me, I always be nice to you too.

My Update for February 2023

I've been melancholic for some of these days actually but soon my melancholy will disappear. I sleep more often and hardly open social media. Ah, it's not good for me actually. I even lost interest in doing what used to be fun for me to do.

This photo was taken on Monday, 20 February, 2023 at 22:09 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

You know, I should take my diploma on Tuesday, 7 February, but it didn't happen. There was a typo in my name on my diploma that was made by the high school which made my mother furious with them. My mother has come to them again on Thursday, 9 February, to check if there was a new diploma or not and thankfully my new diploma has no typo in my name like before.

All last week I was supposed to go to my high school to take the diploma but didn't because I was too tired. It was because of my melancholy period, I fell asleep more often and was sad. Maybe tomorrow or two more days I will go to get my high school diploma.

On Saturday, 18 February, I went to the cinema to watch a film, it's Titanic (1997) in 3D version. It's my all time favorite film, even though I have watched it for so many times but I like to watch it again in cinema, it's the 25th anniversary of the film. It was my first time watching a film in cinema, my milestone. I watch it alone, no friends.

I just broke up with my girlfriend, we haven't even been in a month yet (30 January 2023-19 February 2023). It's better for us to break up than for our relationship to become toxic later. She's a transwoman (just transitioned for 3 months). I actually don't know what I have to like from her, we just met and she wants to be my girlfriend (I met her on Instagram on Saturday, 21 January, 2023). But, we're still friends, she's my close friend and vice versa.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (20/02/2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Monday, 20 February, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/Co47VaJSPHh/

Story of the Day (Tuesday, 31 January, 2023)

It's the end of January 2023, I haven't done anything significant this January but there really isn't anything for me to regret. It's realy not me if I just keep quiet but I really don't have any plans for 2023, it's really confusing actually.

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 31 January, 2023 at 23:25 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

I will see what I will do next February, I don't know if next February will be the same as this January or not. I don't have any hope and I don't have any plans, at least I'm still alive because my existence is very important for the world. I know it, I really know it.

A new friend, a new best friend, a new girlfriend, a new lover. We are only separated by distance, we are quite far apart in age but the age difference is not a problem for me. I love her and she loves me, we'll meet someday. Our relationship will be long, I know it.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (31/01/2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Tuesday, 31 January, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CoFdXGUS95q/

My Update for January 2023

Hi, this is me for 2023. I have changed my hairstyle since 30 December, 2022. I'm still thinking what I want to do further. You know, I don't know what to do now since I don't continue my college at Sam Ratulangi University. One of the main reasons is because the lecture process is still online (except for semester 4, 6 and 8) and also because I don't have money to pay my college tuition, it's IDR 3,000,000.

Currently I don't have any job I just staying alive. I haven't made ID card yet (my mother told me that we'll we make my ID card together later and I'm tired of waiting) and my mother hasn't taken my high school diploma (she still has a debt to my high school, my tuition fee, IDR 500,000 which she has not paid yet).

This photo was taken on Friday, 20 January, 2023 at 09:56 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Friday, 20 January, 2023 at 09:57 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Friday, 20 January, 2023 at 09:57 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Friday, 20 January, 2023 at 10:01 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Actually I have no plan for 2023. What's matter for me is that I'm still alive. I'm just still on my old plan from last year: leave this fucking city and the this province too, leave my family and go so far I can, stay survive in a new place and looking for a job out there. 

How is my relationship with my family now? It's pretty unclear actually for me because I want to leave them but because I'm still here so I'm just taking advantage from my mother. I'm still very dependent on her for my life actually, my food, my cleanliness and my internet credit. What am I doing at her house? Just washing dishes and cooking rice. Sometimes I have done it but she still doesn't appreciate it.

My mother's relationship with my grandmother is very not good. Actually this is an old problem in my family, my mother has hated my grandmother since she was little but things have really gotten worse since my grandfather passed away on 25 March, 2022. Sometimes there are incidents that make my mother and grandmother in trouble, I actually don't really care about it, it's not my business.

Now I still live in my boarding house in Ranomuut Sub-district, Paal Dua District. This is  my grandma's business. Actually I'm very grateful to be able to live here for free and far enough but not too far from my mother, I have privacy here and I still commute from here to home every day to get food, still the same since December 2021. I won't live here forever, this is just temporary.

I know that I can be better out there, I hope this is just the matter of time. What I'm doing now is survival, that's what I'm doing now. You know, I haven't received monthly money from my mother, the last time my mother gave it was November 2022. My money now is IDR 105.000 or $6,93 dollars (20/01/2023's rate).

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (20/01/2023)

The photos in this article were first published on my Instagram on Friday, 20 January, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CnnuPbQSofa/