My Entire 18 Will Be Filled With Hair Loss

My self-confidence has been decreasing since late July 2024. This is mainly because of my severe hair loss in July and August, it was really unpleasant. I don't know what I did that made my hair fall out severely like that. I'm still confused until now. I'll just say that my hair has been falling out frequently since this year, even though I often stay at home, often wash my hair, properly sleep, don't drink alcohol, don't smoke, don't use hair dryer and hair straightener (I don't have money to buy these devices.

Taken on Friday, 13 September, 2024 at 13:48 with Samsung Galaxy A05s.

Taken on Friday, 13 September, 2024 at 13:48 with Samsung Galaxy A05s.

Taken on Friday, 13 September, 2024 at 13:48 with Samsung Galaxy A05s.

Taken on Friday, 13 September, 2024 at 13:49 with Samsung Galaxy A05s.

Huh, almost all my 18 years of age I've been losing my hair. I don't really want to include psychological factors like stress because that seems inevitable to me in this environment. That means that my stress is caused entirely by my environment. Last year, 2023, my hair was thick and strong, to the point where one of my best fiends complimented me on it. I was generally proud of my hair last year, really. This was apart from my presumption that I might have body dysmorphia because of some presumed symptoms of it that I have.

I have asked the solutions for this to some of my best friends. Since September it seems like my hair loss has started to decrease but it is still ongoing. I'm still confused if the way I comb my hair affects my hair loss, because usually when I comb my hair, there is hair loss. I always thought my way of combing was always right, to the left, to the right and back. The comb I have is only a common toothed comb, there are no other types, I don't have enough money to buy another types of comb. Hmm, if I had more money I could take better care of my hair.

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram account on Saturday, 14 September, 2024.

My New Haircut (2024)

My new haircut. I think, this is actually not good but I want to shorten my hair. This could be better if I cut it correctly, maybe. My hair is also a bit wavy. So, this is how it happens. If you look at it from another angle, my hair is not good.

Taken on Saturday, 11 May, 2024 at 22:39 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Taken on Saturday, 11 May, 2024 at 22:58 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Taken on Saturday, 11 May, 2024 at 22:34 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Taken on Saturday, 11 May, 2024 at 22:07 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

I will cut my hair again next year, I hope it's not worse than this year's. If you have a good face, maybe any haircut or style can suit you, but not me. Hopefully I can be like those who have good faces one day.

The photos in this article were first published on my Instagram account on Saturday, 11 May, 2024.

I Need Money to Take Care of Myself

Self-care actually requires quite a bit of money. I need money to take care of myself and for now, because I don't have a job yet, the money comes from my mother. That's enough for basic care, I also don't want to ask for more for quite a lot of reasons.

Taken on Friday, 3 May, 2024 at 10:29 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

When I remember that my physical appearance is not very good, I often feel down, especially because I have scoliosis and I also have an overbite. What needs to be cured first is my scoliosis and later my overbite.

I want to beautify my hair and it's expensive. I want to have straight hair with straight bangs like Sayoko Yamaguchi (山口小夜子), if you've seen my post about her. Ah, I hope one day my hair will be as beautiful as that, The main thing is that my hair is healthy.

Hopefully later I will have lots of money so I can cure my scoliosis and my overbite. I will also beautify my hair as I said before. This process may not be fast, I will be patient. The people who truly love me will be happy if I'm happy, that's for sure. 

The photos in this article were first published on my Instagram account on Saturday, 4 May, 2024.

Story of the Day (Friday, 5 May, 2023)

Ah, two days ago and three days ago were tiring. I went with my mother to many places during the day. Many things have been made, I was so exhausted because of it. If it's like that, then I have to sleep for a long time and I made it yesterday even though yesterday my mother and I should have gone to many places to take care of many things but I can't. Long sleep after the body is very tired, I really need it. 

This photo was taken on Friday, 5 May, 2023 at 15:33 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my boarding house.

This photo was taken on Friday, 5 May, 2023 at 15:33 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my boarding house.

This photo was taken on Friday, 5 May, 2023 at 15:34 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my boarding house.

This photo was taken on Friday, 5 May, 2023 at 15:34 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my boarding house.

Three days ago, Tuesday, I went with my mother to the immigration office to ask about information on making a passport to my sister then to the Manado UPBJJ-UT (Unit Program Belajar Jarak Jauh Universitas Terbuka, The Open University Distance Learning Program Center) office to ask about open university new student registration and tuition fees, then to the shop to buy lots of basic necessities. Two days ago, Wednesday, I went with my mother to civil registry office to make a KTP (Kartu Tanda Penduduk, Identity card) for me and to computer service place to check my mother's old PC and buy a new PC.

This photo was taken on Wednesday, 3 May, 2023 at 16:43 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in a computer service place.

This photo was taken on Wednesday, 3 May, 2033 at 16:44 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in a computer service place.

Yesterday, Thursday, my mother and I should have gone to the health center to get a letter of introduction to the ophthalmologist to check the myopia level of my eyes and then go to the Suzuki dealer to replace my mother's motorbike engine belt. But I didn't accompany my mother to make all of that, I was exhausted two and three days ago so I slept for a long time and didn't go to my mother's house at the morning.

You know, I try to write an article every day about my daily story then I post it on the internet but sometimes I'm really tired or I don't have time to write. So, understand if I can't post articles about my daily story every day. I'm a person who gets tired easily and I need a comfortable state to write long like this. I have scoliosis and that's one of the factors that makes it difficult for me to get comfortable.

Ah, you know, I have cut my hair four days ago, Monday, at night. I shortened my hair and cut my front hair to make bangs but I really regret cutting my front hair. I shortened my hair because I wanted to make an ID card so that my ID card photo would be neater. When at the civil registry office  during a photo shoot, I made my hair have bangs, straight bangs. I also wore a tie for the photoshoot. I don't expect that many of my KTP photos will be good, this is a common problem for the Indonesian people if their KTP photos are bad. I'm really annoyed that I've cut my front hair, I really want straight bangs like Lalisa Manoban member of Blackpink.

This photo was taken on Wednesday, 26 April, 2023 at 17:18 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my boarding house. This is my last photo of April 2023 and my last photo before I cut my hair.

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 2 May, 2023 at 22:50 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my grandma's backyard.

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 2 May, 2023 at 22:51 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my grandma's backyard. 

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 2 May, 2023 at 22:54 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my grandma's backyard.

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 2 May, 2023 at 22:54 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my grandma's backyard.

~ Sofia Rina the Dancing Star (05/05/2023)

The photos in this article were first published in this article.