My Entire 18 Will Be Filled With Hair Loss

My self-confidence has been decreasing since late July 2024. This is mainly because of my severe hair loss in July and August, it was really unpleasant. I don't know what I did that made my hair fall out severely like that. I'm still confused until now. I'll just say that my hair has been falling out frequently since this year, even though I often stay at home, often wash my hair, properly sleep, don't drink alcohol, don't smoke, don't use hair dryer and hair straightener (I don't have money to buy these devices.

Taken on Friday, 13 September, 2024 at 13:48 with Samsung Galaxy A05s.

Taken on Friday, 13 September, 2024 at 13:48 with Samsung Galaxy A05s.

Taken on Friday, 13 September, 2024 at 13:48 with Samsung Galaxy A05s.

Taken on Friday, 13 September, 2024 at 13:49 with Samsung Galaxy A05s.

Huh, almost all my 18 years of age I've been losing my hair. I don't really want to include psychological factors like stress because that seems inevitable to me in this environment. That means that my stress is caused entirely by my environment. Last year, 2023, my hair was thick and strong, to the point where one of my best fiends complimented me on it. I was generally proud of my hair last year, really. This was apart from my presumption that I might have body dysmorphia because of some presumed symptoms of it that I have.

I have asked the solutions for this to some of my best friends. Since September it seems like my hair loss has started to decrease but it is still ongoing. I'm still confused if the way I comb my hair affects my hair loss, because usually when I comb my hair, there is hair loss. I always thought my way of combing was always right, to the left, to the right and back. The comb I have is only a common toothed comb, there are no other types, I don't have enough money to buy another types of comb. Hmm, if I had more money I could take better care of my hair.

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram account on Saturday, 14 September, 2024.

I've Been Feeling Empty Lately

I've been feeling empty lately, I can't explain it now. This relates to my relationship with 2 of my friends, one is my best friend and the other is also my best friend but apparently I misclassified her.

This photo was taken on Saturday, 16 December, 2023 at 00:37 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Guys, if you want to chat with me, please, feel free to send me a message. I've been feeling lonely lately, I need someone who wants to chat with me. Don't be shy with me, okay.

We deserve friends who want to listen to us, me, you, all of us. It is very unpleasant if we don't have any friends who want to listen to us. I have felt that and it makes me sad.

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Saturday, 16 December, 2023.

Story of the Day (Monday, 24 July, 2023)

Ah, what a hot day but I've got a referral letter from public health center to check the conditions of my eyes. I went to the public health center today with my mother.

I chose to check the condition of my eyes at the eye hospital. This referral letter is valid until 21 October, I still have 3 months to go to the eye hospital.

This photo was taken on Monday, 24 July, 2023 at 13:27 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my mother's house.

I'm having a really hard time not having glasses now, I have to have glasses again after my last glasses shattered last January. All the distant objects become blurry as fuck.

I'm a bit down actually today, my feeling of loneliness strikes me again. But thanks to my online besties like Ifa and Fency (she's my new bestie), they made me smile again after we're talking about 18+, it's so fun.

~ Sofia Rina (24/07/2023)

The photo in this article was first published in this article.

Story of the Day (Friday, 30 June, 2023)

From January to June it felt very fast, and I made little artworks during these first 6 months of 2023. Tomorrow is July, good, hopefully I can be more productive. I feel so lazy lah, even though there are many ideas that I want to make. 

I still have a lot of photos from last year to post, almost a year in my gallery. My original plan was to post everything from January to July but it turns out that there are still a lot of photos that haven't been posted yet.

The last few days I haven't chatted with my girlfriend, she's rarely active on the internet now, she said she wants to be more active in the real world, plus she has some mental health problems but I can understand it.

This photo was taken on Friday, 30 June, 20233 at 17:14 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my boarding house.

Ah, I miss Yara, my sixth ex-girlfriend. She was very talkative before, but we're still friends, she's my best friend (just like El, she is also my best friend), just rarely chat now. 

If it wasn't for Yara I wouldn't be enthusiastic about learning French (she graduated from the French Literature department at the University of Indonesia), although actually I studied French since last year.

For those my Muslim friends who are celebrating, I wish you a happy Eid al-Adha, 10 Dhul Hijjah 1444 Hijri (28-29 June 2023). I did not pray Eid prayer yesterday, haha.

~ Sofia Rina the Dancing Star (30/06/2023)

The photo in this article was first published in this article.

I Already Have an Identity Card!

Yokatta! Today I have got my identity card (Bahasa Indonesia: Kartu Tanda Penduduk, KTP). I feel very satisfied with this. After being patient enough, I finally got an ID card. I've been waiting long enough for this. Some of my best friends will be happy about this, those who have been following my stories since last year.

The process of collecting my personal data (such as taking a photo of my face, retina scans of my eyes, scans of my fingerprints and taking my signature) for making this identity card was carried out on 3 May, but just today i got my card. Thankfully, there was no problems occurred.

This photo was taken on Friday, 16 June, 2023 at 20:31 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my mother's home.

My mother and I both went to the Manado City Citizenship and Civil Registration Office (Bahasa Indonesia: Dinas Kependudukan dan Pencatatan Sipil, Disdukcapil) to make this card. In addition, my mother also made the latest version of the family card (Bahasa Indonesia: Kartu Keluarga, KK) with QR code which has been introduced since 2021 by the government and today it was also finished.

I'm so happy now that I have an ID card! With this card my mobility can be very easy in the future. I remember last year when I was really thinking about what if I make my ID card somewhere else (not in this city, Manado or in this province, North Sulawesi) later if one day I can't stand with my family anymore.

~ Sofia Rina the Dancing Star (Friday, 16 June, 2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Facebook page on Friday, 16 June, 2022.

My Update for February 2023

I've been melancholic for some of these days actually but soon my melancholy will disappear. I sleep more often and hardly open social media. Ah, it's not good for me actually. I even lost interest in doing what used to be fun for me to do.

This photo was taken on Monday, 20 February, 2023 at 22:09 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

You know, I should take my diploma on Tuesday, 7 February, but it didn't happen. There was a typo in my name on my diploma that was made by the high school which made my mother furious with them. My mother has come to them again on Thursday, 9 February, to check if there was a new diploma or not and thankfully my new diploma has no typo in my name like before.

All last week I was supposed to go to my high school to take the diploma but didn't because I was too tired. It was because of my melancholy period, I fell asleep more often and was sad. Maybe tomorrow or two more days I will go to get my high school diploma.

On Saturday, 18 February, I went to the cinema to watch a film, it's Titanic (1997) in 3D version. It's my all time favorite film, even though I have watched it for so many times but I like to watch it again in cinema, it's the 25th anniversary of the film. It was my first time watching a film in cinema, my milestone. I watch it alone, no friends.

I just broke up with my girlfriend, we haven't even been in a month yet (30 January 2023-19 February 2023). It's better for us to break up than for our relationship to become toxic later. She's a transwoman (just transitioned for 3 months). I actually don't know what I have to like from her, we just met and she wants to be my girlfriend (I met her on Instagram on Saturday, 21 January, 2023). But, we're still friends, she's my close friend and vice versa.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (20/02/2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Monday, 20 February, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/Co47VaJSPHh/

Story of the Day (Tuesday, 31 January, 2023)

It's the end of January 2023, I haven't done anything significant this January but there really isn't anything for me to regret. It's realy not me if I just keep quiet but I really don't have any plans for 2023, it's really confusing actually.

This photo was taken on Tuesday, 31 January, 2023 at 23:25 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

I will see what I will do next February, I don't know if next February will be the same as this January or not. I don't have any hope and I don't have any plans, at least I'm still alive because my existence is very important for the world. I know it, I really know it.

A new friend, a new best friend, a new girlfriend, a new lover. We are only separated by distance, we are quite far apart in age but the age difference is not a problem for me. I love her and she loves me, we'll meet someday. Our relationship will be long, I know it.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (31/01/2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Tuesday, 31 January, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CoFdXGUS95q/

Story of the Day (Monday, 30 January, 2023)

Lately I've seen a lot of WhatsApp statuses or Instagram stories of my college friends about airplane or airport. You know, I miss flying and I miss the atmosphere of the airport. I hope I can fly again later (definitely to Java Island).

This photo was taken on Monday, 30 January, 2023 at 16:13 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my boarding house.

This photo was taken on Monday, 30 January, 2023 at 16:13 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my boarding house.

This photo was taken on Monday, 30 January, 2023 at 16:13 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my boarding house.

If I'm already in Java I will meet all my internet friends and especially my best friends. It's one of my dreams to meet all my internet friends. I'll realize this dream, for sure. I think, we have to meet many kinds of people so we can adapt well with others.

I slept only 5 hours today, from 7am to 12am, at least I slept well so I feel energized when I wake up. I mopped the floor of my room in my boarding house, it was dirty. I don't like dirtiness, I like to be hygiene.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (30/01/2023)

The photos in this article were first published on my Instagram on Sunday, 30 January, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CoC4_W0SyeQ/

Story of the Day (Sunday, 29 January, 2023)

Ah, yesterday and today went really well. I didn't have any problems yesterday and today. My best friend Yara was really really kind to me we've only been friends for about 1 week but she and I are already best friends. I also miss Clara too, she's one of my best friends, I haven't chatted with her for over a week, I have asked her about her condition today and she's fine. She says she is busy with her job now, I appreciate that.

This photo was taken on Sunday, 29 January, 2023 at 17:29 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my grandma's backyard.

Yara lives in Jakarta and Clara lives in Yogyakarta. Yara doesn't have a girlfriend now and Clara has a girlfriend (her name is Javi and she lives in Semarang, Central Java). Me and them both have an age difference of 8 years, they were both born in 1997 while I was in 2005. Sometimes I like to flirt them, I love them both, they both are my closest best friends until now. We are part of LGBT community.

There is one of my friends from Medan, North Sumatra who will come to Manado on 31 January, his name is Boydo, he is my college friend from Faculty of Law of Sam Ratulangi University. I sometimes like to discuss with him about existing social issues via WhatsApp.

Boydo plans to live in the student dormitory of Sam Ratulangi University. He wants me to accompany him in campus on 31 January to take care about the requirements to stay in student dormitory, he is the first time here and also I am his closest friend here. I hope I can accompany him.

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (29/01/2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Sunday, 29 January, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CoARDnzSMYs/

Story of the Day (Sunday, 22 January, 2023)

I got a new best friend two days ago, she's a transwoman and a lesbian. Okay, long story short she is very good in French whereas I am still in basic. French is one of 24 languages ​​I'm currently learning.

This photo was taken on Sunday, 22 January, 2023 at 07:43 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my boarding house.

But it's good, I can practice my French with her. One thing that might make learning French difficult is the pronunciation, this is a common issue but if you want to know you will know. Always practice okay!

Anyway, happy Chinese New Year "Year of the Rabbit". I have Chinese descent from my paternal grandmother (my mother told me so).

~ Sofia the Dancing Star (22/01/2023)

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram on Sunday, 22 January, 2023.

Source/Reference

https://www.instagram.com/p/CnuOhtaSERz/