Diary of Sofia Rina

Saturday, November 4, 2023

I Have Always Been Attacked by Feelings of Loneliness Lately

I have always been attacked by feelings of loneliness lately and usually at midnight. It's hard to get rid of it because the reality is that I am lonely. Not to mention stress, laziness and boredom and all of these sometimes appear together.

I can't be like this because I have to do my college assignments, I have to do it all. There's still a lot that I haven't finished yet. I also want to write scripts for my upcoming videos on YouTube and TikTok about linguistics. Guys, hope me the best.

Monday, October 30, 2023

I Feel So Pressured Lately

Yeah, this photo wil be my profile picture for many of my accounts until I want to change. It's hard to find a good perspective if your background is not good. Hope me to have a better living place. I'm attractive for those who attracted to me.

This photo was taken on Sunday, 29 October, 20233 at 22:10 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

It's difficult to be difficult but once I get difficult it's difficult to not be difficult anymore, just get through it until I feel it's over. I feel so pressured lately and got so many stress, I also losing my personal space. That's why I rarely post something now.

I don't know how many people romanticizing mental health issues or some related things but I'm romanticizing it too and I'm one of those who have mental health issues. This is real you know. Not gonna lie, this sucks but makes a missing feeling.

Well, I guess I know the problem, I've barely had any sun in all of October, my fault but also not my fault, it's complex. This is not an easy situation, if you know you know. I rarely even get moonlight. I often stay in the room while doing my college assignments.

If you love me you will always love me, if you hate me you will always hate me, this is what i know now. I'm 'kind' for those who love me and I'm 'evil' for those who hate me. I question why people love me and why people hate me, I need reasons.

Hey internet, use your algorithm and promote me, I'm promoting myself now. I don't know if I've said this before but I want to make a video for my YouTube. I'm tired of not really being me, a bit late to say this but I think will say this again later.

By the way, I love ASMR. I have always love ASMR since I know it in 2016. I would like to be an ASMR artist someday, I think it would be fun and relaxing, either for me and for another internet users.

The photo in this article was first published on my Tumblr blog on Monday, 30 October, 2023.

Friday, October 20, 2023

Checking My Eye Condition

Yesterday my mother and I went to the eye hospital to have my eyes checked. Yokatta, there wasn't any problem with my eyes after being examined with a tool that has a camera and flashlight to check the eyes by the ophthalmologist. She gave me medicine and eye drops.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 19 October, 2023 at 13:31 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 19 October, 2023 at 13:36 with Samsung Galaxy A10s. This is the water control room of the building.

Even though I and my mother were waiting for my name to be called, it wasn't as long as when I came there on 10 August because this is just a check up. My mother told me that the doctor was vea that time.

The photos in this article were first published in this article.

Saturday, September 2, 2023

My New Glasses (5th)

Look, I have a new glasses! This is my 5th glasses, my mother ordered this online and the package was received on Sunday, 27 August, 2023. Now I don't have to struggle to see distant objects. What do you think about my new glasses? I like cat eye glasses. With cat eye glasses it can add me more feminine and sophisticated look.

This photo was taken on Saturday, 2 September, 2023 at 16:21 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my grandma's backyard.

This photo was taken on Saturday, 2 September, 2023 at 16:22 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my grandma's backyard.

This photo was taken on Saturday, 2 September, 2023 at 16:29 with Samsung Galaxy A10s in my grandma's backyard.

Cat eye glasses first appeared in 1930s and became so popular in 1950s and 1960s (I'll write more about cat eye glasses later). With so many eyewear companies now the price of glasses is not that expensive now like in the past. My glasses cost almost close to IDR 300,000.

On Thursday, 10 August, 2023 I and my mother went to the eye hospital to check the condition of eyes. Thankfully there are no problems with my eyes and yeah my scale of nearsightedness has increased (the numbers are secret) I should have written this last month but I was lazy.

I should make another article about my visit to the eye hospital last month but I think it's good if I post my photos in the eye hospital in this article, so these are the photos:

This photo was taken on Thursday, 10 August, 2023 at 10:28 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 10 August, 2023 at 10:32 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 10 August, 2023 at 14:23 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 10 August, 2023 at 15:10 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

This photo was taken on Thursday, 10 August, 2023 at 15:11 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

The photos in this article were first published in this article.

Wednesday, August 16, 2023

My College Suit of Indonesia Open University

These are my photos wearing my college suit of Indonesia Open University (Universitas Terbuka, UT). As you can see, the color of this suit is yellow. I and my mother went to the branch office of UT on Thursday last week (10/08/2023) and bought this suit, the price of this suit is IDR 200,000. This jacket fabric could be better, but it might be more expensive.