I Am A Very Calm Person

As the result of what my social environment did to me, especially my family, I become a very calm person even under a lot of pressure. It also means that I avoid conflict if I can. You know that if you try to understand me, if you are my friend, as I try to understand you.

Taken on Wednesday, 10 April, 2024 at 09:16 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

Many people don't understand me and they can easily attack my personality subjectively. Some minor differences are exaggerated and of I'm tired of correcting many misunderstandings that have occurred. If there are controversies about me I will let it go as far as I can control it.

Changing myself is not easy, especially if I want to change the world. It's better to make small changes that work than big changes that don't work. I don't like forcing myself or other people, everyone will definitely change. We are always in a transition, either worse or better.

I enjoy the process by process that got me to where I am today, even until later. I am always grateful to myself and nature for this. That includes the bad things that happened to me. Forgive me if you think I was wrong, what is unforgivable in this world? Nothing.

The photo in this article was first published on my Facebook account on Saturday, 13 April, 2024.

Do I Care About Politics?

You care or don't care about politics, it still influences your life. Back to each individual, but my advice is that you need to learn about politics, you need to have political knowledge so that you won't be fooled later especially by those politicians.

I care about politics but I don't really show it. Although mainly because I avoid conflict, especially with my friends, I also don't want to be 'wrongly' affiliated with a particular ideology or political movement.

With this there will be people who will call me a coward and I have no problem with that. If on an international scale, it is better to buy time for some conflicts than to start a third world war.

I Didn't Force You, I Wanted You to Help Me

Okay, so there was an anonymous account on Instagram that sent me a screenshot of a post from one of my Facebook friends and the post was about me. It was a post just for friends and I was honestly confused at the time.

I was confused about why he, my Facebook friend, posted that and after I looked for his account it turned out he had unfriended me, I don't know since when. So that post said that I was actually a liberal and edgy person.

In that post, I noticed that one of my friends, who was also his friend, reacted to his post. I chatted her on Messenger and asked her to help me to screenshot that post and send it to me but she refused. That was the first time I asked her for help and she refused.

She then said that I didn't actually ask for help but dragged my problem onto someone else. How could she really didn't know my worries at that time and she said so. What did I say then to her? "Fuck you".

She then said that I was manipulative and forced people to ask for help. Since when did I become manipulative, you fucking bitch? I really don't understand with her at all. She also mocked me by saying "just cry" several times.

Very bad, I thought all this time she was my friend but it turns outs she wasn't my friend and this was my fault. I didn't feel anything wrong with cursing her, really. I just asked for simple help and she couldn't help because she didn't want to, not because she couldn't.

If you are reading this bitch, do  you want people to do the same thing to you that you did to me? You do not want it, right? Later, if someone asks for help, please help if you can, don't ignore it.

 

If she had helped me by sending me the screenshots, I wouldn't have posted this. I just want to know the reality of that post because I was informed from an anonymous account about that post. Of course I didn't immediately believe it, I was very worried.

I didn't understand the purpose of the anonymous account telling me about the post and of course I'm worried. What's worse is that there is one of my friends who I can't ask for help, that one bitch. Again, fuck you, okay, fuck you!

Regarding the post itself I already know what it is, it's somewhat political and with personal annoyance. I actually don't care about it, at least I know now. He said that I'm a liberal and edgy, hmm, I don't care and who would cares?

If you are reading this, the one who posted that post, I'm not against socialism okay. I actually support socialism but not consecrated socialism. But you must always remember that I believe in freedom. 

I think it's clear now, by my side of course. I have forgiven you bitch and I'm not manipulative and will never be manipulative. You need to understand this. Hopefully you will become a better individual in the future.

My Drawing "Socialism and Peace in Indonesia"

Okay, so this is one of my old drawings about euh maybe socialism in Indonesia. Haha, I forgot I had drawn this before. I don't really know how to describe this, the point is socialism and peace in Indonesia. 

Taken on Monday, 18 March, 2024 at 23:02 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram account on Monday, 18 March, 2024.

I Fast Because of Health not Because of Religion

I fast because of health not because of religion, after all I'm not religious. Even then, I fast according to my mood, if I'm not in the mood, I don't fast. But I fast at the same time as those Muslims who fast during Ramadan, just taking the moment.

Taken on Wednesday, 13 March, 2024 at 22:49 with Samsung Galaxy A10s.

My family doesn't know about this and that's good and I will never tell them about this. They know I fast but for what reason they don't know. They don't even know that I'm not a Muslim anymore and again, that's good.

It's my choice not your choice. I don't care if later conservative Muslims will condemn me. Keep your conservatism to yourself. Why I say this is because I don't want people to think I'm Muslim except for certain circumstances.

The photo in this article was first published on my Instagram account on Wednesday, 13 March, 2024.